CATHARSIS GALLERY INTRODUCTION

Dream, desire these are things, that make our life dynamic and in most cases generates problems and sometimes simply make us happy. Dreams and desires give us new challenges requires mental and physical efforts, without them we live only to feed our bodies and satisfy our needs. Fulfillment of our dreams also can be deemed as meeting our mental demands, but there is one big difference. Man’s dream must be directed not only to his satisfaction but must bring something to other people too. Only in this case man will be part of society and his dream must be shared with others. Dreaming only for yourself is just waste of life. In many cases people simply give up and stick to reality – work to earn money, spend money to have comfort to help other people maybe. They often say – “life is life and we need to live and to eat” and there is no time for dreams. Maybe they are right and life is given to live for others and for fulfillment of one’s dreams even if these dreams are not selfish. But long time ago we have been said that we can move mountains. And how it can happen that yesterday we were dreaming about something and today not? Maybe our dream was just some kind of fantasy and nothing else? Can man overwhelm true desire and true dream that come from his soul?

 

 

 

The character this album is about, has the same story – he is trying to forget about dreams to have less problems, but for him it is not that easy. We can count this song as a song of his soul. That simply asks – “how many times you will try to ignore something that is stronger than you?”.

On the other hand  there is deep need of total control over environment when someone wants to fulfill his own dream. In many cases we are fighting with life for our dreams instead of finding sense in those obstacles that are on our way to our happiness. And do we know enough about life to control it? That is chorus of the song. Lets say it is “sung” by intuition of the main characters.

 

How many dreams you've put in shadow of time?
How much love you've lost whilst fighting with life?
How many times you thought it was in vain?
But why do you care still no one is to blame?

Look around to see the world
is turning on without control.
And how you gonna fix it boy
when you don't know?

How many fights are you going to take?
How many losses are you expecting today?
How much hope you think you will consume?
How much love will there remain in you?

Look around to see the world
is turning on without control.
And how you gonna fix it boy
when you don't know?

How many dreams you will put away?
How many times you'll say: "it is in vain"?
How much love will consume?
How much love will there remain for you?

Well here the action begins. Finally the fellow, whom the story is about, gives reality less priority and concentrates on his dream. This is his song

 

They say
That the time has come
Time to face the truth
Compromise
Is the only way to live
It will be too late tomorrow

But life is going by
And in my current disguise
I can't find my sky
And there's no reason for me
For such a vanity
I can't give up my scheme

And yet I cannot be
Someone else but me

I say
No matter where you are
No matter what you have achieved
Prosperity
Is not the only thing
That can make me feel free

And how can you define
That time has come
For me to start new life
If there is real need
It is like curse
Won't let you free

So yet I cannot be
Someone else but me

This sing is warning for him. Do not consume everything that life gives you in a harry. Patience is the key to happiness, but only patience not inactivity.

 

Wait don't talk about any future plans today
Fate, sometimes won't listen to the prayers that you pay
Stay right where you are cause there is nothing you can change
When, you don't know what your life is and from where it came

Time gonna mend everything but mistakes you've made
Don't take in a rush all you need it will fade you away
You'd better wait
You'd better wait

Wait, don't think about profits of tomorrow day
If you, don't know what for your life was given to you
Dreams, can turn your life into the nightmare of your sins
Leave without obsession that will never give you peace

Time gonna mend everything but mistakes you've made
Don't take in a rush all you need it will fade you away
Just simply live

Man in most of cases is motivated by something that is associated with reality, not with divine. We eat to live, work to earn for food and entertainment and how often do we think about what for are we living what is our predestination? And do we have answers? If yes do we pay attention to them often? Crime will be punished by government or people, and we know that. Difference between sin and crime is that many people think that there will be no punishment for the sin. Many people always remember about criminal code but often do not pay attention to the laws that are not written in constitution. The character of this story is not exclusion and when we give priorities to the things that are secondary, life starts killing us. Dream may not be something that we live for, it is only something that helps us to live properly, otherwise we will be in trouble.

 

If you are slave of your need
Life starts killing you
If you are running out of love
Life starts killing you
If matters only what you see
Life starts killing you
If you don't know how to forgive
Life starts killing you

Is your life dried out by your crimes?
Does your soul dissolve into your pride?
No restriction when chasing your own dream.
Can you see sense in your defeat?

If you can not give up your pride
Life starts killing you
If there is nothing that you need
Life starts killing you
If you can find no sense in leaving
Life starts killing you
And if you think this world is yours
Life starts killing you

Is your life dried out by your crimes?
Does your soul dissolve into your pride?
No restriction when chasing your own dream.
Can you see sense in your defeat?

If you have emptiness inside
Life starts killing you
If you are guided by your mind
Life starts killing you
If you can stand no single loss
Life starts killing you
I know you think its only song
What if it's all true?

Sometimes we have problems, and the first thing that we are seeking in such cases is somebody’s help. But is problem given for this? To find help? Or maybe it is test that we have to go through, chance, which, if treated right will help us change ourselves to have a better life? Do not our problems arise from us? This is what our character of this story is told in this song by someone whom he addresses for help.

 

I don't need excuses for
That i shall not help you now
I can't save you from the things
You've deserved so better try somehow
Not to complain and go ahead
This is not end of your life
It is only test to take
Be a man and pass it with a smile

How it comes that all you have
Slowly feeds your darkest side
How it comes that all your weakness
Comes from all that you admire
I saw that you were only
Devouring your soul
Now tell me why you are waiting
For mercy from above

Money comfort and some fun
And after that your human rights
You've never felt beyond your fat
And you are part of other people's life
Greedy emptiness inside
Of your feelings and your prayers
Don't dare to say that you lived your life
You were only feeding your despair

How it comes that all you have
Slowly feeds your darkest side
How it comes that all your weakness
Comes from all that you admire
I saw that you were only
Devouring your soul
Now tell me why you are waiting
For mercy from above

Will you die or will survive
It will never change a thing
And convulsions of your pride
Will put the end to your existence
(It does not mean death, but just existence)
So I don't need excuses for
That i shall not help you now
I can't save you from the things
You've deserved so better try somehow

This is my personal point of view. My advise to the hero of this story.

 

What do you need from life to be completely satisfied
What will you leave for others when for you comes time to die
You say that you don’t care surviving every single day
I think that it is you who turned your life into the shade

Way that you are to follow is nothing but the dust
It does not mater where you’re going matters how you’ll pass
All that you took from life will vanish in the past
Give more than you have taken time is running fast

What for you need your life when getting closer to the death
I think you have no answer life for you is all you have
I see you in a rush to get as much as you can get
Life gives, why do you take, will you find out until the end

Way that you chose to follow is nothing but the dust
It does not mater where you’re going matters how you’ll pass
All that you took from life will vanish in the past
Give more than you have taken time is running fast

What do you want to give what do you have that life can take
What will you give it for and why you think that it will change
All that you have inside results in what life gives to you
And everything you’ve given, was it really meant for you

Way that you chose to follow is nothing but the dust
It does not mater where you’re going matters how you’ll pass
All that you took from life will vanish in the past
Give more than you have taken time is running fast

It does not matter what we achieve where we are what we have done. Cause all this means nothing if we did not learn anything from life, if there is no progress in our souls. Life always gives us chance to find right way, no matter how down and depressed we are. We only have to open our souls to see that chance. How often do we fail to do this?

 

When I was a boy I was full of hope and love
But now I'm a man who waits for nothing but the wrath
Can you tell me what happens as time raises us?
Can you show me the place where our innocence hides?

Sweetness of the hatred and pride
Hazed my weary mind
And I take the gun to shoot the sun
In my sky

Then darkness had come and my heart had turned away
No wish no desire just wilderness of brain
It was only beginning and I was ready to go on
To get my very prize - to turn off my empty soul

Obsession of the anger and aim
Hazed my blinded brain
But there was nothing to shoot or nothing to fight
But my crime

Then I saw the light that has the colour of eternity
And I felt that hope was coming back to me
I saw the sun in the clouds - reflection of my state
As my soul was reflection of that sun that never will fade

Despair and fear unknown
Filled my empty soul
But I put the gun to face the clouds
In my sky

When I was young I was full of anger and pride
But now I'm a man who doesn't wait but tries
And I think I know what time is doing to me
And I know my innocence still remains in me

Soul is endless. End means beginning of something new. There is much less beauty in the evening without a candle and in the candle without evening. Everything complements each other. Light – darkness, darkness – light. Every moment is counterfeit  illusion of our strength of our weakness, we are all light and darkness and everything coexists and develops into new forms of coexistence.

 

In drawer of my weary life
I found the picture of my smile
It said the word I hadn't said
It sang the song that never ends
And the summer of your eyes came back

And thousand ships will pass the storm
That looks for nothing but the door
Of house it cannot ever have
And sails will laugh and waves will slash
Lazy stone that hardly ever cares

And all around is like counterfeit illusion
That make a lot of sense for my confusion
Light of candle plays with winter evening
And again I see that life is just beginning
In forest of my thoughts I lost
The road to alter of endless hope
In fields of feelings freedom showed
That only soul remains above
Fears and aims of bustling daily events

Abandoned tunes raised in my heart
In spite of years that have been passed
I came back to the point of start
With scars so deep but light inside
And the summer in my eyes will never die

And all around is like counterfeit illusion
That make a lot of sense for my confusion
Light of candle plays with winter evening
And again I see that life is just beginning

We all finally find our way through

Slowly day by day
I am going my way
To the freedom of love
Through the wisdom of fate
Life can make you bleed
But it will never mistreats
Life is always right
So you’d better forgive

Shadows of the past
Lead to the light of tomorrow
Everything will be gone
This world is not your home
Still it is part of your soul
As you are the part of its sorrow
Will it become the place
Where we shall find freedom of love?

But everything in this life is temporary except our sole. Waiter brings life on a tray. Life must be digested, confession must be said. After that – barmen is waiting. But in the end – clear endless sky, to which everything belongs.

 

Hey waiter
Bring me on your tray
My very life
Fried on the pain

And listen waiter
Don't forget abuse
And peace of mind
So hard to lose

And here I stand on the land that is trying
To reach the clear and endless sky
Before I'm gone I can only say
I just was trying to do everything right

Hey barman
What about my plans
Some of them completed
Some buried in the sand

Look here barman
I know why you smile
You're right old man
Love hasn't died

And here I stand on the land that is trying
To reach the clear and endless sky
Before I'm gone I can only say
I just was trying to do everything right

I left behind that whiskey bar
That is right between
The earth and the sky

In the eyes of waiter
I saw depth of hell
But it seems that barman
Was Heaven's man

And here I stand on the land that is trying
To reach the clear and endless sky
Before I'm gone I can only say
I just was trying to do everything right

Still working on lyrics and concept. It will be about changes (revolution as the most extreme form) and price that can be paid for them.
Tere will be several characters in this album. I called them simply:
Mr. Doyouknowhim - main character, the one who is discontent with current situation and who is ready to do everything that is needed to make world better.
Mr. King - opposite side, who is interested in slow and peacefull development.
Mr. Fate - the one who really rules

Mr. Fate:
Have you seen crowd crucifying Jesus
Praying to the God for success in that business
Are they the same as many years ago?
Or maybe they’ve changed – I guess you know
This crowd consist of you and me
Without sin we cannot be

So tell me what all this sufferings are for
And if there is reason to carry on

Mr. Doyouknowhim:
There must be any sense in leaving
There must be any sense in death
How can you get it without seeking
For something that you’ll never have

Mr. Fate:
Have you seen crowd turning into slaves
All they need – someone to blame
Today – worship, tomorrow – irritation
Lost in wilderness of satisfaction
This crowd consist of you and me
Without sin we cannot be

So tell me what all this sufferings are for
And if there is reason to carry on

Mr. Doyouknowhim:

There must be any sense in leaving
There must be any sense in death
How can you get it without seeking
For something that you’ll never have

Mr. Fate:
Some always fight for changes, some obey
Who profits and who loses will you realize one day?
The sword and wisdom may not be combined
And how you’ll know the price that can be justified?

You’d better change yourself than world
And keep yourself away from wrath
But still you sharpening your sword
Intensions good but something wrong

Some always seek for fight and for flame
They think that iron always proves and saves
But times are changing faster than they can see
And will their deeds survive will of destiny?

You’d better change yourself than world
And keep yourself away from wrath
But still you sharpening your sword
Intensions good but something wrong

 

Mr. Doyouknowhim:
I don’t wanna be, hey people
What you wanna me to be
I don’t wanna sing, hey people
What you wanna me to sing

Music does not lead but is leaded
To meet the standards, to be sold
Only sex and fun are needed
Can music really change the world?

And do you need this song?

Tell me what a man must do when he sees that everything is wrong
Tell me is there any difference between spoken word and taken sword
Should we wait for others or compel them to do what must be done
When everyone is deaf and blind to the threats that are all around

Hey man I’m gonna show you what we all must do
And listen fellow I don’t’ wanna scare you

I don’t wanna be, hey people
What you wanna me to be
I don’t wanna sing, hey people
What you wanna me to sing

Music does not lead but is leaded
To meet the standards, to be sold
Only sex and fun are needed
Can music really change the world?

And do you need this song?

Someone said: “it takes everything just to be free”
And then I heard: “it takes freedom just to love and to give”
Someone added: “it takes lifetime to become what you wanna be
But does it pays back and do you really know who you are to be?”

Hey man I’m gonna show you what we all must do
And listen fellow I don’t’ wanna scare you.

Mr. King:
Can you see little further
Than ideas that only you adore
Can you be little wiser
And realize that will is not the world

Think before you say twice before you do,
Watch where you’re going or I’m gonna finish with you.
What about those who need no changes at all
They will give everything to see you burn

Mr. Fate:
And what a fun are humans’ plans
Their greediness still has no end
And story is the same again

And still I see they both don’t care
But trust me they will have their share
The story is the same again

Mr. King:
We shall find our profit
In any case no matter will you win or lose
Strength will be lulled by softness
In bog of your ambitions you’ll be down-glue  

Think before you say twice before you do,
Watch where you’re going or I’m gonna finish with you.
What about those who need no changes at all
They will give everything to see you burn

Mr. Fate:
And what a fun are humans’ plans
Their greediness still has no end
And story is the same again

And still I see they both don’t care
But trust me they will have their share
The story is the same again

Mr. Doyouknowhim
Before wind falls
I’d like to ask a little drop of rain
To become a tear on my face
Cause I won’t weep any more

Before wind falls
I’d like to ask a little note of tune
To sing a song to you
Cause I won’t sing any more

Before wind falls
I’d like to ask a little candle’s glow
To show me what is endless love
Cause I won’t love anymore

As I’m following this storm
But before wind falls
I would like to ask

Be wise like peace
Be free like belief
Be blessed like a hand
That gives to starving bread